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Thread #142631   Message #3518889
Posted By: billybob
24-May-13 - 02:37 PM
Thread Name: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
Feeling very down today, sorry folks!

Just feeling sorry for myself, I have been working on the memory book for mother but instead of enjoying delving into the past, I have got to the late 40's early 50's, so am depending on my memories now and I am feeling sad that I have lost the mum I knew then.

I should be feeling grateful to still have mum with me ,and ,of course the good news about Billy being in remission but somehow I feel in a black hole at the moment, not like me at all.

Also it is two years since we lost my father and I still feel very numb, haven't been able to grieve his loss at all? Maybe because looking after mum and Billy has taken all my time and care?

with love to all the crew