Mudcat Café message #3463863 The Mudcat Café TM
Thread #142631   Message #3463863
Posted By: Nigel Paterson
10-Jan-13 - 04:27 AM
Thread Name: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
Subject: RE: Healing thoughts & prayers please (Nigel Paterson)
For the first time in my life, I 'phoned The Samaritans Help Line last night. I'm home alone; Ann is staying at Jane's until the weekend but I have Doctor's appointments here in London. Making the 120 mile round trip three times was not a viable option.
    I was out getting some shopping & bumped into a colleague from my teaching days, who informed me of the death (from cancer) of a pianist with whom I'd worked, on & off, for over twenty years. What shocked me almost as much as learning of her death was the fact that she'd died 18 months ago & I had heard nothing via the local musician's 'network'. By the time I returned home, a list was forming in my mind of the Family members, close friends & colleagues, all of whom have succumbed to cancer. I stopped when I passed the twenty mark; it was all too distressing & overwhelming. A little later, I made my call to The Samaritans. I talked, a lady with a calm, gentle voice listened & said the right things at the right time. I went to bed a little earlier than usual & actually slept quite well.
    It's just after 09:00 & I'm feeling ok; a sense of balance & perspective has been restored. The emotional tsunami of yesterday has been displaced by something akin to rational thought. So, as Dear Wendy says: "Sailing on".
             With Love to You All,
                                             Nigel & Ann.