Mudcat Café message #3352758 The Mudcat Café TM
Thread #142631   Message #3352758
Posted By: Nigel Paterson
19-May-12 - 05:39 AM
Thread Name: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
Subject: RE: Healing thoughts & prayers please (Nigel Paterson)
Day one for this thread was 12th January. By the end of the 12th there were 23 posts...a pretty impressive start. Never in my wildest dreams could I have imagined that I would be sitting here on 19th May, writing post 501 (that is, unless someone squeezes in 501 while I'm writing this!). The collective power of this online community is something I have never experienced before...more profound, more inclusive, more safe, more worthwhile than anything 'masquerading' as religion. I went to church as a child...most people did in the village in which I lived, but it wasn't long before questions were forming in my mind that needed answers. The answers didn't come & round about the age of 12, my Father was summoned to the vicarage & asked to remove me from the congregation because I was a 'trouble-maker'. At school, R.E. was taught by an ordained minister. He didn't answer my questions either, so our teacher-pupil 'relationship' deteriorated rapidly, resulting in frequent punishments. His preferred method was to bind & gag me & sit me on top of an old safe in his office. He would then proceed to rail at me about hellfire & damnation & what an evil little so & so I was.
          I started this thread because Ann & I felt so desperate & helpless following Jane's diagnosis, but as the days have turned into months, I am becoming increasingly aware that I need all you good people too...people I can trust, people I can rely on, people who, despite their own trials & tribulations will still take a moment to find out how we're doing.
         I cannot adequately express what your kind, caring words have meant to Ann & myself & to me on a very personal level. You've put back a measure of trust in my Life that has been absent for too long.
         With Much Love,
                                 Nigel & Ann (And Nigel personally)