Mudcat Café message #3094669 The Mudcat Café TM
Thread #63952   Message #3094669
Posted By: wysiwyg
13-Feb-11 - 06:53 PM
Thread Name: BS: Bereavement
Subject: RE: BS: Bereavement
(Bill, we cross-posted, and thanks.)


(((Mouldy))) Keep on keepin' on!


If I might indulge for a moment-- this is always a very hard time of year for me. In addition to SAD issues, this is the time of year my [dead] identical twin was dissolving in utero, up close and personal, making a close relationship... physically toxic. Each year it hits me differently, for which I guess I'm grateful, tho it means I am never quite "set" for what will hit. This year, it hits while new meds take my own heartrate down to nil-- so I am cold, lacking any stamina, and physically always-overwhelmed.

;~) About the time present friends (or I myself, LOL) learn how I am THIS year, I'll be into however I will be, that I/they do NOT understand, NEXT year. So Katie's piece yesterday was just a marvelously cathartic moment for me.